他们都说有很多种爱人的方式，有些叫放手，有些叫如果她幸福，我就幸福，可又有些叫占有。什么方式不重要，重要的是知道自己的爱到底应该是那种。爱是没有理由根没有逻辑，因为爱情不是能用任何东西去衡量的，可为什么人们都喜欢用东西来衡量这个如此美丽的感觉？

如果那天你发现爱有对错的时候，请记得告诉我。我一定会拿一个特大的马桶把你的头塞进去。你肯定喊冤！那我来告诉你：“爱情没有对错。“就算这个人对不起你那是她错不是爱情，他对不起你是因为他没有对不起她的感情。我也没说对不起任何一个人就是对的，爱情不是用来脱罪的理由，因为我也听说有种爱叫做感激所以都要看你们自己。

所以如果那天你们听说某某人外遇了，那最好的就是什么都不作，因为不管你的事而且如果外遇了，那只能说明他俩的感情出了问题，莫非你的问题，你理她的干吗？爱情往往让人失去理智所以在你责怪别人以前，请问一下自己如果那天我身上也发生了同样的问题，我会如何是好？可如果你遇到了脚踏两只船的人情毫不犹豫地指责他，因为他在对两个人不尊重同时也没有把感情当回事。那你肯定问我外遇和一脚踏两只船的人又分别吗？。看上去是没有。可是其实是有的：因为如果一个已婚的人外遇了，那表名三件事
-1 他明白自己结了婚可是还是爱那个人，无法控制的喜欢，所以不爱你了，要分开，那你要个人在心不在的人做什么？
-2 他是爱你的，只是一是受不住诱惑，那就要看你愿不原谅他。
-3 知道自己已婚，可是还是毫不犹豫的外遇，因为知道你是他的，那你要个不尊重你的老公作屁阿？
而脚踏两只船的人呢？他们就是知道自己玩得起就算知道了最多就分手阿。如果他们像1这样解释那请把它带到海边一脚踢他下海。因为如果爱上了，那它应该坦白对你说然后分手对吗？可他没有，这就表明他没有要让你知道-就是骗你感情！恋爱跟婚姻不一样 恋爱最多就分手，没什么好考虑的。可结了婚，可是要申请离婚，也有可能有了小孩，为小孩考虑。所以一脚踏两船的人在此就可以死！

虽然我说爱情没有对错，可有时不是爱情错了而是那些人的处事态度错了。所以你要说爱情没错，可以！请你不要拿爱当借口用来伤害别人。如果没办法一定要伤害人，那至少会把伤害降到最低，而且一定要在没有办法的时候。有些人可能认为我这是歪理，可这不是，这只是我对爱的理解。每个人对爱的理解都不一样，就像对画一样。就只有那个作家会知道原来的解释，就算有了一样想法的人，那也只是平身无几的知己。

在此，我要闭门思过了！=]

below are things i write everyday but cant pot because i cant access blogger..which i am thinking is my lappie or the internet connection..hope its not my lappie..=]
020909
vince drove us to the airport..meanwhile at the airport i had bread papa(my craving since who knows when)..boarded the plane..was unable to sleep because the plane was stinking and there was a baby cryin almost the whole night..reached shanghai airport..baggage claim that time..marmie's luggage was taken by others..luckily that lady was also from our tour group..lols..luckily my luggage is SPECIAL(like me)..then took the maglev train(fastest in the world to the city)..seriously i thought it was lik japan's train..then we went to chenghuangmiao to eat xiaolong bao and walk around..but was boring because i went there last year and there wasnt anything worth buying except starbucks which i did bought..then check in hotel and then its free and easy time..so we rested awhile before going to nanjinglu for uniqlo and then more shopping before eating at zhengongfu..zhengongfu is a chain fastfood which serve only steamed food..the food was almost normal but the soup was superb...we proceed to walk back to the hotel and after walking for almost an hr before realising that we have walked the wrong way..(gotta clarify that there was 2 holiday inn where we stay and they are at the opposite end and we walked to the wrong one)..so we proceed to tak the most dangerous transport on earth(a motor rickshaw kinda ting)..but it was probably the most exciting thing of the day..when i reached the hotel,i mailed swit hart and bathe before i crashed..
030909
wok up early to reply to her mail because i didnt get to do it properly ytd..sometimes when i feel like shite,i take comfort in the fact that my swit hart is only a mail away..i really hope shes fine but i know even if shes not,there probably no1 there for her..words mean nothing if you dont mean it,sometimes an action beats a thousand words but i can do neither..because its something she gotta deal..then i bathed and then went down for breakfast(which i assure you wasnt to my taste)..then we went to nanjinglu yet agn with the tour this time..and it was uber boring becuase we only get half an hour which wasnt enough for any serious shopping and so we took picture and rewalk the place..lunch followed by a bus trip to suzhou which took about 2hrs..then we went to wangshiyuan which was a type of garden..it was nothing special and i am kinda getting all restless seeing same things everywhere..=x..next,hanshanshi which is a temple..had a new guardian arhat(luohan) which i know nothing about..then dinner and here i am blogging..
040909
breakfast was crowded like hell and the only thing nice is the egg cooked in soy sauce(kinda like the tea leaf egg)..we went to the slik factory to see how the silk stuff are made of..bought pillow with the shite of the insect that produce silk...and bought a qipao..must be wondering why i bought qipao..because i like unique stuff and the colour was rather unique(ok maybe not so but not as common as pink,blue,red)..its gold..then after 2hrs= bus trip,they brought us to xitang,a water town..it was really special,like the houses all that are beside the lake and the houses give off a feeling i cnt describe..then to hangzhou,xihu tour which i wasnt interested because i am half dead..dinner and we went to watch a performance very famous here which consist of dancing,acrobatics and stuff but i fell aslp during the last segmen t of the show which they say was the most exciting but really was too tired to even stay awake..went to the hotel and there wasnt anything to do so i crashed..
050909
dreamt of grandpa last night...forgot what it was about but i woke up crying and couldnt get back to sleep..which sucks big time..my mum said i probably dreamt of his funeral..but i remember clearly he was alive and talking and with others just couldnt remember what he was talking about and with who...and this feeling os maybe he somehwere near trying to tell me something sucks big time..i believe that when dead people appear in your dream, it either mean that you were thinking of them or that they wanted to tell you something..and i know he was trying to tell me something,but i couldnt remember what..i am probably useless..early in the morning,i have changed my contact lenses which meant a change in eye colour..and this color sucks big time..it bright blue instean of the sapphire blue and i look so fake..but i dont have a choice..guess i shall be fake for a month at least..
today finally breakfast doesnt consist of egg and mantou..so i had steam yam,tapioca and guess what PUMPKIN..i love pumpkin..=]]..then proceed to tea plantation which was so-so..although i was bitten by the dont know what insect(only 2person out of 26 got bitten) ,guess my blood is sweet..muahahas..and then i took out my phone and realised its spoilt..=[[[[[[[[[[..whos gonna be nice enough to buy me a new one(preferably n97 or iphone)...they had a demostration there that was super interesting that i forgot to take any photos..but we didnt bought any tea leaf because you must know,my house probably have more tea than instant noodle because my mum keeps buying and my dad gets it free but no1 drinks it..funny??..yarhs..then lunch at a restaurant called grandma's place..food was so-so although the interior was unique..and now i am on the bus toward nanjing(the closest i get to hm) which will take around 5hrs..since theres nothing i can do and the bus wasnt comfortable enough for sleep..so i took out my lappy and decided to write..shall update after i reached nanjing's hotel..
after we alighted at nanjing,we went to yangtze river to take picture and then we had dinner..after that we went to fuzimiao,which i went 2yrs ago so the place is almost the same except that it at night..i bought a SNOOPY SOCKS..but dont think i will wear it and a jeans and a jacket which i practically lurve..muahahas..
060909
early in the morning we went to the only bridge that when crossing the yangtze river in nanjing,we dont have to pay..it is build about 40+yrs ago by the chinese..they were so poor they have to melt the metal of anything metallic in their house such as pots and pans..and it took 10years and many lives to build..because the yangtze river flows at 6m per sec so when they have to build the foundation,four men will take a big sand bag and jump into the water to be able to withstand the flow..and thus many lives was lost..up until today,even though the maintainance of the bridge is so high that it would be better to build a new bridge,they didnt tear the bridge because its the pride of all chinese when the soviet and westerners said we could never ever be able to build a bridge..but we did at the expense of many lives..
under the bridge,there is this artist who paints into things like biyanhu..(show you guys picture when i get home and unwrapped the thing)..saw a panda teapot i really like but was bought by another person so the artist took another one undisplayed for me and when i look at it,i feel sad and protected..because the picture in the pot is parents and a panda cub..the parents are protective of the cub which is playing..and it brings me to the artist own history::(i didnt know before hand when i bought the teapot) the artist is a single parent child because his father was one of the many people who sacrificed to build the bridge,and the father's dying wish was for his son to be able to see the completetion of the bridge,which he did and often contribute most of his salary to the maintainence..and thus when he grow up,he became kinda loner kind..so when i saw the teapot,it just made me feel like its something he lack and he drew it to the point of envy..whatever right..
next was the nanjing massacre muesuem..i kinda teared there..it really sad to see all the evidence of so many people who died just BECAUSE THE JAPANESE FUCKING FEEL LIKE IT..i dont discriminate..but japanese ought to just own up to it..of course the young japs has nothing to do with it..but i couldnt show you guys the many places and the remains of the body because its super disrespectful and i am scared of attracting ''stuff''(yes,i am a scary cat but i am having the time of the month and its even more ''unlucky'' foe me in that sense)..
so after the muesuem,we went to somewhere to buy jade...and and and something weird happen(see i told you,its unlucky and i only took 1 pic)..my mum wasnt planning on buying but then the salesgirl was super persuasive so she tried it on a jade bangle..and then she took off hers..the salesgirl put it temporary in a box for her in case it drop and stuff..then then then,the box drop and the jade bangle(my mum previous 1) drop from the table which was shorter than a coffee table..and it cracked..normally jade which is hard,will have no effect from such a height..but then it crack..and they say when the jade crack,it protects its owner..so it was either protecting my mum or ME!!..so after that the person was apologetic and my mum KINDA gort a new jade bangle at a discount..i got one as well..(okays,i know jade belong to old ppl but mines diff..)whyiie you ask..because my jade has purple colour(WHICH IS UNIQUE)..and you all know how unique stuff have on me..but my mum was super upset she didnt eat muc lunch while i gorge myself..(i eat when sad)..
then we are on the way to wuxi..went to sanguocheng..where they film and stuff..it may look old but the place is younger than me by 1yr..DAMN..I FEEL SO OLD...and then we went shopping,didnt bought anything(hard to believe but true)..then here i am posting..muahahas...

trivia
-have been having watermelon for every meal including breakfast(not that i am complaining)..
-my mum lurve to take picture of me when i am unglam..either she does it on purpose or she only capture picture when i blink my eyes and stuff
-in all the hotel i stayed,there wasnt a single bathtub..
-i crashed before 1 everynight(which is rare)
-nanjing ppl have 8billon tree in the city and they have a day each year to plant a tree each..
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-beacuse in beijing have great wall of china which is cheng,in nanjing there is jade,in suzhou,their gals are all fair so look at girls,in xi an we see the tomb of emperor qin,in wuxi,we eat the pork ribs which is famous..
-??is the size of 4 singapore and it is only the 3rd largest lake in china..
-tourguide in china can speak malay better than me..damn..
-jade can scratch glass effortlessly

~~~thoughts..am i the only one left behind,am i the only 1 who hates goodbye??~~~

-theres this baby which is ard 20 mths in our tour..watching the baby makes me think about my own life..i can imagine how strict i can be with my child(if i ever have any)..and my mum likes to say that i wasnt cute at all during my babyhood..she says that my nose is super flat..and i was sickly and cry everytime at the wrong time..actually i thought i was pretty clever..hahas..bhb..
but anyway this trip made me think alot and i have alot of takeaways..was thinking about how my life was so unorganised as always..how some decision can affect you life more than you think..how i was more unsociable than i thought..but really if i wasnt like this would i be me??..uprepentant=[
i realise that everytime i was overseas or something big happen,i seems to be able to dereive alot of things and get my motivation..and i get all organised..my thoughts get clearer..but when its normal days,i just slack and slack which is probably they say going overseas is best for me..
the bus wasnt comfortable enough for sleep even though i can sleep anywhere anytime when i am tired..so that goes to show how comfortable it is..plus at night i cant sleep well,i have a habit of regcognizing my pillow and stuff and i cant have light and noise when i sleep which can be a trouble esp when you sleep in hotel and i change one everynight which made it worse..so then i fall asleep when i am really tired and thus making me very restless during the day which i cant complain about because its my own bad habit..
anyway i check up my guardian arhat which wasnt alot of explaination but better than none..my arhat was originally an elephant during his previous life and in his present life time he got recarnated as a human because in his elephant life,he stopped a war between 2 countries..wasnt he cool..hahas..my previous arhat was a price who got enlighted after he gave up his prince status and stuff..

*[[lenice]]*
-life is rough so we gotta be tough